6 months ago my world came crashing down. Well actually it was two days before that. Something far worse then a nightmare happened. I was 27 weeks pregnant with my third child, second son, Isaac. On Friday 21st August 2015 I had noticed my baby wasn't moving. I tried all the usual tricks but nothing worked. Off I went to the hospital with my 8 year old daughter. Thinking I was just being silly and would be sent home as everything would be fine. But it wasn't. By a bed side ultrasound and then sent for a proper ultrasound l was told my babies heart had stopped beating. The world fell out from underneath me. Two days later l gave birth to my son, Isaac John at 27 weeks.
The grief of loosing my baby is beyond words. The pain is unimaginable. I want to tell the whole story but right now not there yet. What I do want to focus on is the positives. Life is always about what we make of it and what we choose to do. I won't and don't want this to sink me. There is still a lot to be grateful for. I found who my real friends and family were. I am truly blessed to have some friends that stood by me and where there for me. There love and support has helped me immensely and would be lost with out them.
now have the most amazing partner who has stood by me and helped me soooo much. Even before when we where friends the messages and conversations made a massive difference. He has been there for me and is still there for me. Listening to me and just being there behind closed doors. My sons autopsy results are still not in and there are test that are being done and I am truly grateful for him coming and being there for me. There are no words that can truly express how grateful l am and how in love l am with him
Although the results is being dragged out and it an emotional mind fuck, 6 months on l am the happiest I have ever been. For once all areas in my life are coming together. I still have a cry, it never leaves however I choose to focus on the present moment and what I can do with my life and there is a lot to be done.
"I receive great inspiration and clearer guidance to what l should be doing and where l should be going with my life. I love the encouragement support and love" ~ Karen
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