6 months ago my world came crashing down. Well actually it was two days before that. Something far worse then a nightmare happened. I was 27 weeks pregnant with my third child, second son, Isaac. On Friday 21st August 2015 I had noticed my baby wasn't moving. I tried all the usual tricks but nothing worked. Off I went to the hospital with my 8 year old daughter. Thinking I was just being silly and would be sent home as everything would be fine. But it wasn't. By a bed side ultrasound and then sent for a proper ultrasound l was told my babies heart had stopped beating. The world fell out from underneath me. Two days later l gave birth to my son, Isaac John at 27 weeks.
The grief of loosing my baby is beyond words. The pain is unimaginable. I want to tell the whole story but right now not there yet. What I do want to focus on is the positives. Life is always about what we make of it and what we choose to do. I won't and don't want this to sink me. There is still a lot to be grateful for. I found who my real friends and family were. I am truly blessed to have some friends that stood by me and where there for me. There love and support has helped me immensely and would be lost with out them.
now have the most amazing partner who has stood by me and helped me soooo much. Even before when we where friends the messages and conversations made a massive difference. He has been there for me and is still there for me. Listening to me and just being there behind closed doors. My sons autopsy results are still not in and there are test that are being done and I am truly grateful for him coming and being there for me. There are no words that can truly express how grateful l am and how in love l am with him
Although the results is being dragged out and it an emotional mind fuck, 6 months on l am the happiest I have ever been. For once all areas in my life are coming together. I still have a cry, it never leaves however I choose to focus on the present moment and what I can do with my life and there is a lot to be done.
Business Muscle Building
Hello Beautiful Souls
Feeling pretty excited and nervous all at the same time. What's happening?
Tomorrow I'm starting a small business program. The first step is a certificate in small business. This is so not my thing. Why doing it? Because I want to and need to build my business muscles up. They are pretty small and weak. I know l can do my thing as a naturopath, herbalist and the other things I love to do however the actual running of the business freaks me right out. I have no clue.
Book work, Finances, Business plans, tax stuff and blah blah blah. I do also love listening to audio books to build my business muscles up too. This is a post for another day!
Although this is totally way over my head, it's time to get my head above it. Time to work out the nuts n bolts of running my business and get it going. I've talked about running my business for sooooo long now, I'm am actually over talking about it and now it is time to action it all! This business course is a step in that direction. Time to step into the fear of the unknown of running a business. A huge leap of faith. I can't wait for the day I can hand over the book work and tax stuff over to someone.
However for now I need to learn it and I do feel this is a good thing for me to learn. I want to build a solid business. A business that is going to last. A business that is going to grow and expand each year. A business that is going to fully support my amazing family! A business that is going to support an organisation. l can't wait to start up to help children with my organisation.
This year has and is really motivating me to start to action my business into reality. It is exciting and feeling like in going to burst from the inside and the other half is nervous and scared. So I am going to focus on the exciting part and break through the nervousness, being scared and break through the upset limits I have put on myself (a great audio book on breaking through your upper limits).
So far 2016 has been the best year of my life and here's to 2016 to keep getting more amazing!!!
Have a magical day!!!
Blessings Belle xo
Mood booster ~ Gratitude
I love the beach. Best place for me to ground and recharge. Extra grateful for this day as it was spent with my family!
When I'm feeling down and bummed about my life a technique I've learnt to help lift my mood is Gratitude.
I will say to myself what are 10 things I'm grateful for. Each time l do this I am amazed at how quickly my mood shifts.
Sure there are times of great stress, especially money. Then I think my bills are always paid and in the past I've always gotten by. And this time is no different. The universe always provides for me.
It is a great mood booster.
Love the full moon. Grateful for this time and at this particular time spending it with an amazing friend
I am working on writing in my journal a page of gratitude each night. Ok it doesn't happen each night however I make my best effort to do it as often as possible. If I can't write it, l will say to myself the things I am grateful for. When I do write my gratitude down I sleep better and wake in a better place with in.
I also want to keep attracting more things to be grateful in my life so l work on focusing on the amazing things already in my life.
Grateful for my two older children. Who have taught me so much
What you focus on is where your energy goes. Where energy goes is what is reflected in your life. Our thoughts are extremely powerful. Only we can control them. Make them work for you, not against you.
Yes we all have a story.
Yes we all have some shit in our lives.
Yes we all have amazing things in our lives.
The choice is always yours on what you want to focus on.
Want more amazing things to be grateful for in your life, then focus on the good and the amazing things. And watch how more amazing things happen in your life.
Grateful for the memories & gifts l have of my stillborn son, Isaac
Your daily gratitude list can be of anything. Anything that lights you up. It can be from family, friends, blue sky to rain and chocolate (definitely chocolate), a flower you saw or an amazing connection you had that day. If it lights you up then put it on your list.
What are 10 things you are great fun for today?
Blessings Belle xo
Grateful for the these that were left to me by my Mum
"I receive great inspiration and clearer guidance to what l should be doing and where l should be going with my life. I love the encouragement support and love" ~ Karen
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